Posts by Crisis of Conscience

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Horrifying Demon Attack: My Experience

by laverite in

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on a warm summer day when i was about 12 years old (early 1980s), i was home alone for a brief time (family had gone to the grocery store).

i had always been terrified of the demons and was constantly worried about a possible demon attack.

being born in, growing up a dub, the devil and his demons were always either on my mind or not too far from conscious thought.

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laverite - I had always been terrified of the demons and was constantly worried about a possible demon attack.

I felt the very same way. I feel I did nothing that deserved me having this terror all the time. But when it is ingrained you, it makes you constantly look over your shoulder. Believe it or not, the only way I got over the fear was when I read the "Spirits of the Dead" brochure by the WBTS. (I'm not promoting here. Just being honest. But feel free to throw-up if you get the feeling. )

Oh yes, and seeing as your hands may have been involved in something "sinful", in what way exactly did your neighbors have to clean you up? (Not an elder but asking an elder probing question nonetheless. Your honesty and openness don't guarantee your repentance. LOL )

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Why do many of us spend so many years defending a God we MAY never meet?

by Crisis of Conscience in

as a jw still in, i have been thinking about this.

(and i ask the question in the spirit of "millions now living will/may never die!

") lol.

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As a JW still in, I have been thinking about this. (And I ask the question in the spirit of "Millions Now Living Will/May Never Die!") LOL

As a JW who is part of the "great crowd" I will, as has been taught, never see God face-to-face, never meet Him.

So I "take in knowledge" about him, defend all these things that I just can't understand or explain why he would do them, and then still not physically see or get to know him?

When is the last time you spoke to someone REGULARLY on the phone, internet, etc. and not wondered what this person looks like or desired to meet them in person?

I do believe there has to be some sort of creator. It's kind of odd that things would've happened by chance, but that is another topic.

But this whole thing of putting faith in someone I have never seen, met, will see, or meet is really starting to falter in my mind.

Talk amongst yourselves. - Quote from Mike Myers of SNL

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Most Ridiculous Thing You've Ever Been Counseled On

by MrFreeze in

i'm sure topics like this have already come up but they tend to get hilarious with the absolute absurdity that goes on in the kh.

i was once counseled for not shaving after two days.

i was also counseled by a sister for eating lucky charms cereal.

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Just thought of something else -

Told an elder I took a picture with a Michael Jackson wax figure. His response? "UUUgghh!! Why? He was disfellowshipped!!"

Told another elder I rode the Tower of Terror at Disney. His response? "Why?! That's demonic!"

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Most Ridiculous Thing You've Ever Been Counseled On

by MrFreeze in

i'm sure topics like this have already come up but they tend to get hilarious with the absolute absurdity that goes on in the kh.

i was once counseled for not shaving after two days.

i was also counseled by a sister for eating lucky charms cereal.

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"Hugging" my wife during a prayer (Bull ((((COUGH, COUGH))))) Sorry had something in my throat. Must have been a curse word)

Writing or making changes on the information board. (I feel that damn cough coming on again!!)

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If still "in", how do you feel when praying in front of a group despite being in doubt of your beliefs?

by Crisis of Conscience in

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it happened to me this weekend.

i'm curently "active" and had some long time friends from a different congregation over for dinner.. we went through the formality of praying before the meal.

normally or rather lately i've been passing it off to someone else.

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I was away recently and was asked to pray before a small group. I couldn't really say no since there were only 2 other brothers and they had had their turn already with the other meals. Boy did it feel weird. And I really felt inside, "This really doesn't mean anything. If they only knew."

Oh well. Life goes on and so do I - undercover. Until the day.

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"Armageddon is Weeks Away" Phrase...Is WT pushing this phrase more recently?

by mentallyfree31 in

i'm wondering if this phrase is perhaps being pushed recently in letters to the elders or circuit overseers.

i have heard it a time or two here in the last few days on the forum - specifically from a bethelite.. also, the last conversation i had with my presiding overseer about 5 weeks ago, he used this exaxt phrase: "i believe armageddon is only weeks away".. i know its been right around the corner for 130 years, but it seems this exact phrase seems to be floating around a lot lately.. what are your thoughts?

jw's usually don't think for themselves - they just repeat what those above them say.

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I heard they pin pointed the day of the week. Yes it is actually going to occur on a Wednesday, plus or minus up to 3 days.

LOL

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Who Are Your Past Circuit Overseers? It's a small world..

by mentallyfree31 in

who were your past circuit overseers?

i'm sure a lot of us actually know mutual people, as the co's relocate all over the country.. here's a few from the southeast us: (let me know if you recognize any names and post yours too please...).

ellwood johnson (new york/philadelphia area for several years also).

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EndofMysteries Wow you have Hanz and Frager too, wonder if we ever crossed paths ;0

Were you in the tristate area in the Northeast?

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Who Are Your Past Circuit Overseers? It's a small world..

by mentallyfree31 in

who were your past circuit overseers?

i'm sure a lot of us actually know mutual people, as the co's relocate all over the country.. here's a few from the southeast us: (let me know if you recognize any names and post yours too please...).

ellwood johnson (new york/philadelphia area for several years also).

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East Coast - Don't remember a lot of 1st names and some were/are DO's

Conti, Anthony Decinti, Filisbino, Frank Hanz, Frager, Bartell, Everett Rodrigues, Bargeron, Frank Furtado, Cook, Christos Ismalitis, Thompson/Thomas (Don't remember)

I'll edit this if anyone else comes to mind

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Roll call - How many here fake being a "good Jehovah's Witness"....like me!

by Witness 007 in

there is no truth...i know that.

to please my mum while she's alive and wife i go to meetings and the 3 day convention coming up.

i would rather go to the dentist.

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Count me in. ATM I feel pretty comfortable with the way things are going. I have actually been able to relieve a lot of stress (as crazy as that sounds).

I think the reason why is because while I'm not at the meetings, I do whatever I want. If I want to waste hours on TV, videogames, movies, etc., I do it. I don't keep up with the magazines, the text, the Bible reading, or anything else anymore. So most of the 168 hours of the week are mine. And hopefully I will reach the point soon where more, if not all, will be mine.

I must say, it feels really good to do what I enjoy. The next goal is to sleep in on Saturday's. I already do it on Sunday. And I love it!!

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Gratitude from a long time lurker!

by Thetis in

i cannot begin to tell you how grateful i am to you!

you reassured me while i was one of the walking wounded.

you know that line from the movie "shadowlands", when the student says to c.s.

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Welcome! I can say that in my case being here is indeed therapy, a form of release. I don't post a whole lot, but I read as much as I can. And because of it, I have been able to deal with a lot of anxiety that has come to me by being a witness, IMO.

Enjoyed your expressions and look forward to hearing more from you!